Well, I've been failing Writing 101.
About a year and a half ago, I relocated from central Ohio (Go Bucks!) to sunny, northern California. It was a huge move! As I packed boxes and then unpacked boxes, I had visions of new sights and sounds stimulating my creative juices. I thought views of the Pacific, rugged mountains, dry heat and new cultures would cause my imagination to kick into overdrive. Once the house was unpacked, the children enrolled in school, a new job procured and new routines developed, I did thoroughly enjoy exploring the new place I was learning to call home. I found myself constantly amazed by the beauty before me -- the clouds hanging on the mountain tops, the rugged cliffs which jutted right into the sea, the sunsets over the bays. I met and continue to meet wonderful people and absolutely love my job as a Paraeducator in a special needs classroom. I've been happy. I've been intrigued. But most of all, I've been tired!
It's only after a year and a half that I'm starting to feel like writing again. Until very recently, the thought of sitting with my computer on my lap after a full day of living and working seemed like a pipe dream. I've missed writing. I miss my characters. I miss the stories. But stepping so far out of my comfort zone and having to completely learn a new place has just sapped my creative energy. I think about writing all the time. I come up with new angles and ideas for the stories I was writing before I took a break. And it isn't as if I've written nothing. On the rare occasion I've attempted to write, however, I generally end up asleep with my laptop perched precariously on the edge of my lap.
So here I am, finally, ready to give it a go again. The biggest problem I've noticed as I revisit my old work is that it truly is like starting over. I feel like I'm at step one as I agonize over word choice and question whether the story I'm trying to tell even has any merit. Rejections sting a little more as I wonder if I would have done something different with the story a few years ago when writing was apart of my routine.
I'm enrolling on Writing 101 again. This time, I hope with a whole lot of work and a little more of that blood, sweat and tears, I'll get my groove back!